Remember the prospect guy I wrote about? We chatted yesterday. Nothing's special. He didn't mention anything about the girl he fancies. The story does not end there though. Harriene's life will never have a happy ending you see. He instead volunteered to become my zi'ghe (means 4th brother). A wise girl like me should be able to decipher the message. Decrypted message is "I don't like you and the best I can offer is to become your brother." Ouch! Ouch to that subtle rejection! Ouch! Ouch! Ouch!

Dude, Can. I. Just. Kill. You? I've got enough brothers alright! I don't need extra one. Shoo! Set the one you love free.. you shoo away! .

"Spare the rod, spoil the child."

I don't agree. My mom never hit me ever since I was a kid but I consider myself quite a good daughter. I think she's even proud of me. Where else can she find a daughter who loves to stay at home and blog all day? :p Ooops, I do still go out on weekends.

I maybe a little stubborn and bitchy at times but I think my mom is quite satisfied with me. I remember I once asked mom if she thinks I'm a bad daughter. She said she doesn't consider me a perfect daughter coz' I answer back or even yell at her at times. In chinese, kids should never answer their parents back. It's a sign of disobedience. Even if you think you're right and they're wrong, the traditional chinese kid should shut their mouth and pretend they conform to what they parents have to say. In more traditional families, the parents' word is the only rule.

But of course at this day and age, you seldom see perfect kids like them and I'm sure not one of them. So my mom said, I'm not a perfect daughter but she already accepted the fact and knew of my flaws. In fact she sees herself in me when she was younger that's why she has no excuse to even try to correct me. When I'll have my own kids, no rods for them. I don't think that is the only way to discipline a child.

Unbelievable

A few months back, a guy kept sending me mails and telling me of his admiration over me. *blush* He said he already knew me two years ago (though I never knew he existed) but wasn't able to get my contact info back then. He also said he couldn't summon up his courage to approach me but for the past two years since he last saw me, he'd occasionally remember me and regret he didn't approach me.

Lately, through the help of a common friend he was able to find out about my contact and that's when he started sending mails to me introducing himself. I was still responsive the first few mails as he didn't seem to be harmful or anything like that but after three or four more mails, I reckon he's becoming to be more of a stalker than a new friend. I stopped replying. He's going way overboard sending mushy mails. A few of his best lines would have to be that he wanted to clone me and take care of my clone. All sleazy stuff. I'm starting to doubt if this guy is still in his right mind or just plainly odd. I think he just created a perfect image of me in his mind and that is making him crazy over that image which he himself formed.

Knock knock? Hey oddy-doodidoo guy, do I know you personally? How can you be so sure you like me when you don't even know me personally. *roll eyes* I actually forwarded his mails to my friends. Initially they thought it was romantic to have someone pay that much attention on me but as the deeper he revealed himself through the next few mails, everyone agreed this guy is weird. How could he be head over heels with someone he just saw once (or twice!). I don't know whether I should feel flattered for having a stalker or feel bad that I only attract weird guys like him. But I am flattered. I didn't know I can still look attractive despite the depressed and lifeless aura I project. *grin*

More details on this oddy guy ...

Superficial Me

Once upon a time, I was imprisoned in a life full of bitterness and jealousy. I used to envy my friends for having their own cars and being able to go party anywhere anytime coz' they have the money and the resources. I am not the wealthy kid like they are and I always feel a notch inferior than them. Until I was able to buy a 2nd-hand car for myself, I thought now I'll be able to catch up with their lifestyle and go partying too.

Lately though, I found out all my friends have already changed their old ones to brand new ones. A luxury they can enjoy at an early age which I can't. I admittedly felt a tinge of envy once again. I'm still left with my 2nd hand car. Vicious cycle.

The inferiority I felt was just a brief mode. I later realized that life will never be good until you stopped comparing youself to others. Unless you learn to be contented with what you have, you'll never be happy. Though my friends are enjoying a better and wealthier lifestyle, I do know that relatively, I'm also blessed enough. Just perhaps not in terms of wealth and money.

I'm so superficial and materialistic. :D At least I realize it now. I'll try to be more focused on other more important stuff other than material things.