When you like a person, every weird thing he does suddenly becomes tolerable. I wonder who could tolerate my eccentricities?

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Endorphins Scarcity

Not in good condition lately. Haven't done any workout the past week. Harriene's mood was made worse by a chat last night. Here's an excerpt of my chat with Mr. Fish:

Fish: Do you know this girl, (name of girl)? (You see, this guy only remembers to talk to me when he's about to ask something about a specific girl he met and that makes me feel bad. He's just plain insensitive.)
Me: Yeah! I met her a few years back. Why do you ask?
Fish: Oh, it just so happened that some virus caused my email account to send a message to her. She replied asking who I am. I later discovered the two of you know each other.
Me: I see.
Fish: How's she?
Me: I don't know her that well. All I remember is she's the quiet type of a girl.
Fish: Is she pretty? :) (Uh-oh! He seems interested.)
Me: Ahmmm, not really. (Alright alright, I'm bad! If the one asking wasn't Fish, I'd probably say she isn't that bad.)
Fish: Lol. Of course, she can't be as pretty as you. Right, sis?

Do ordinary friends have to always remind each other that they're just brothers and sisters? Why does he always have to remind me that? Endorphins dropped to negative infinity.

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When I Die ...

• I want my organs donated


• I want to be cremated


• I don't want any religious rituals conducted. No mass or prayers or chantings.


• I want a few good singers around playing my fave songs (in guitar please). I'll post my fave songs later.


• I don't want to impose on what color to wear but I will appreciate white.


• I hope somebody would help me burn my diaries without reading it. On second thought, it doesn't matter anymore.


• I want candle burners all over diffusing my fave scent - chamomile or lavender or green tea.


• My funeral song would be "My Immortal" by Evanescence

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Heart Imbalance, hehe..

I am now a certified exercise addict. Not only I love it, I'm obssessed. It pumps me up, makes me hyperactive, gives me energy. Ah, bliss! I think I'm sick. For the past month, I can't let a day pass without doing any calorie-burning regime. I'll be off from work for 3 days starting tomorrow for a roadtrip and instead of looking forward to it, I'm worried. Hell worried that I'll be missing my workout for 5 days. This is odd. I might have psychological disorder for loving exercise too much.

I was able to chat with Fish. Fish is the moniker I attached to the guy I fancy. Last weekend he mentioned he's going out for coffee with a friend. For a few seconds from the moment I read the message, my world stopped. My heart half wished he'd tell me he's now dating a girl so I can finally give myself a reason to end my wishful thinking. The selfish part of me hoped it wasn't a girl he's going out with. The good news or bad news is, he's not going out with a girl.

On another note, why am I writing these two completely unrelated topic in sequence like they're two connected stories or are they? Truth is they are interconnected. I exercise to keep myself happy because in reality, I'm kinda sad. The sadder I become, the more exercise I engage myself into to keep my mood in control. Hence the tendency to over-exercise. I'm trying to keep the balance and it seems like I'm reaping more benefit from it, which is good. Figures say a third of my heart feels bad but due to over exercising, a bigger percentage of my heart is happy. Thanks to Fish then because if not for him, my effort to exercise wouldn't be as intense.

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Breaking the Monotony

I once read a comment from a blog that says something like... "In order to prevent depression and monotony in life, try to do something beyond your limits as often as possible. Challenge yourself by continuously expanding your comfort zone. Be it learning a new skill, making a new friend, going to a new place, anything. Just as long as it stretches your current self and forces you to do things you don't normally do.

I guess the reason why I am happy and have nothing to blog these days is because I am applying the aforementioned concept. I am growing and expanding and in the process of transforming. Nothing life-changing though. Just a few tweaks in my lifestyle like adding a new activity, adjusting my diet, making a few new friends, going to some places I've never been to. I'm, well simply embracing the new things in my life. I hope there will be more.

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